Thursday, October 22, 2009,
Laying spending my days,
In this room made for sorrow,
Between the door and the window,
My bed is breathing for you,
But this is my decision,
Replacing life for grief.
Many do wonder.
But I cannot move on,
Not even a metre.
I have been ready,
To take down,
Thousands of stars,
From heaven.
To realize every single...
wish you wanted.
Don't worry,
You also will have it good,
With another.
Someday I will find a suitcase for my memories.
You don't owe me anything for loving you.
So I want you to know that,
it doesn't matter.
Even though,
Sometimes you could have loved me better.
©TIEN
10/22/2009 10:06:00 AM
Monday, October 5, 2009,
There's never a right time to say goodbye..
Talking about myself, I know that I am pretty much a complicated person and usually I make decisions for myself, also concidering other people.
It's quite bad to make decisions for others just because you feel that way.
For me, it just really was time to say goodbye to a past I cannot take with me to a well known future, one we already once have lived.
Usually when someone liked me, I did my best to prove how horrible I am and that there absolutely is nothing to like about me.
I don't know why I tried so hard not to be liked, honestly I quite am worth the effort to be known. It's time to grow up, time to stop wandering in the past of an worthless youth and trying to relive it at the age of 20.
There are too many goals to reach.
Too many other things I have to do.
I can't take Peter Pan with me anymore...
I feel free.
I don't have to live in the shadow of someone's heart anymore, there where always everything went wrong.
TIEN
10/05/2009 04:26:00 PM
Thursday, October 1, 2009,
Miyavi, Miyavi, Miyavi!!
I went to his concert 27-09-09 @ Tivoli in The Netherlands.
Honestly I wasn't too excited that day, I didn't really cared much because I had a milion of other things on my mind.
Seriously even if he stood before me I wouldn't care at all, he's just a person anyways.
Eventhough...
It was a really great evening and I am glad that I had a ticket and friends that like Japanese rock too. I have met some people who went alone because nobody they knew was into Miyavi.
Also I have met some nice people I hope to stay in touch with.
They are so lucky to be able to play in front of such a hudge public.
When I used to play in a band we were happy if 15 people showed up, HAHA.
TIEN
10/01/2009 12:07:00 PM
Nick: Tien.
Gender: Female.
Birthdate: 19-04-1989.
Location: Netherlands.
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